how moment

how did it happen

that an academic gown

is the official garb of ministers

and

that one of the main criteria

for admission to the pulpit

is a

university degree

stone moments

why is it

so many hands

within the body of Christ

hold a stone

or are reaching

for a stone

for some

the stone

has been held for so long

the hand has formed around it

roots

wombing a stone

why

and what is the finger of God

writing about this

on the tablets of our stony hearts

wondering moment

although absolutely ecstatic about the 4000

who gathered last night

to pray and worship

the One True God

it has left me wondering

why double that number

are expected today

to listen to a counterfeit

when will we wake up

and when we do

will it be too late

nugget moments

while attending a teaching seminar
over the last few days
there have been some gems
some pearls
dropped at our feet

in the quiet of the land
there are watchers
those who wait

the Eternal One had a new beginning
at the time of incarnation

Jesus comes
not pointing a finger
but with nail pierced hands

too often
we hide
behind the stuff of our lives

we are baptized in the tears of obscurity

an encounter with God in obscurity
changes the way you walk
leaving one with a limp

the wilderness is our place of transition -
when all that is familiar is behind you
and all that is before you is unknown

Jesus makes an entrance in the storms of our life

listen for the voice of humility

in the time of choice
we often go after our own cravings .............

holding moment

John Gebhardt in Iraq

This little girl's entire family was executed.

The insurgents intended to execute the little girl also

and shot her in the head...

but they failed to kill her.

She was cared for in John's hospital and is healing up,

but continues to cry and moan.

The nurses said John is the only one who seems to calm her down,

so John has spent the last four nights holding her

while they both slept in that chair.

The girl is coming along with her healing.

We cannot control the Wind but we can adjust our sails.

ministry moments

the stuff of ministry is
sometimes hard
sometimes lonely
sometimes earth shattering
sometimes filled with wondering
and
sometimes absolutely glorious

as was yesterday

a room filled to overflowing with shepherds
standing shoulder to shoulder
heads lifted
eyes focused beyond the hills
on the Creator of the hills
worshiping together
one heart
one voice
one God

and then
kneeling at one another's feet
sometimes weeping
sometimes laughing
sometimes silent
sometimes loud

blessing
honoring
and giving thanks
for one another

moments like this
hugely soften the hard times

title moments

there is a huge sadness in me

when seeing

those who would seek position

seek being noticed

seek a title

the hole inside their heart

must be so big

their loneliness

so huge

when never discovering

their true identity

the effort it must take

to continually climb

and never rest

in contentment

I was struck

the other day

by the colors of the opposite shore

the blending

the distinction

one brilliant red tree

standing alone

is amazing

but when standing

shoulder to shoulder

with the greens

yellows

browns

and all that is inbetween

perfection is seen

within the body of Christ

there is so much striving

to stand out

to shove aside the other colors

a huge scrabbling of stones

eventually causing the whole house to tumble

mercy moment

there is this deep yearning

to be so fully aware

of God's great mercy

that life itself becomes a ministry

where there is hardly any difference

between doing and being

overflowing moments

this is one of those weeks
when every bed in the house is full
three blow up beds full
a body on each couch

the table groans under the weight of the food
chairs snuggled tight together so no one is ever left out

laughter floating everywhere

quiet,
and at times not so quiet,
singing

I am missing the piano
but grateful for the fingers
that strum the guitars

constant gurgling of the coffee pot
and whistling of the kettle

it seems someone is cooking something all the time

there is so much love in every room
every corner

so many hugs
even tears have a deep sweet fragrance

all the little noises
in the quiet of the night

life is very beautiful
and so much more so when lived in midst of people
who love each other

I am deeply blessed by these moments

asking moment

are you willing
to step outside of your day
away from your disappointments
your fears
your dashed hopes

are you willing
to come up here
and see things with Me

are you willing
to step away from all that is easy
all that is familiar
all that brings comfort

are you willing
to step aside from who man has said you are
from your giftings
from where you have been

are you willing
to come higher
and see what I see

are you willing
to lay down all that has been given you
to exit places you have entered
to be hidden in new places

are you willing
to climb to the top
and step out with nothing underneath
but My arms

are you willing
to have all your props removed
and only My promises to hold you up

are you willing
to step out from under the robes of deferred hope
that have become so familiar
and easy to wear

are you willing
to soar
to run and not grow weary

are you willing
to dream My dreams
to sing My songs
to let go of everything
but My hand

are you willing
for me to untie
the laces of your boots
that have become so heavy

are you willing
to remove the clothes of man
and wear the robe I have for you

are you willing
to open your hand
and release it all

are you willing
to die
in order to live

are you willing
to not even consider the cost
as you let go

one by one

as your hands open

as you climb the ladder of praise
with your feet on the rungs of worship
step by step
speaking My Name

are you willing
to discover

I AM ENOUGH

choice moment

we have nothing to offer God

except our choice to be with Him

and that is a choice

that no one but Him

is likely to put any value on

Enoch moments

thinking of Enoch

walking with God

was it
difficult
painful
easy
to get into step with God

and then
to keep pace with Him

that means too that Enoch
must have been easily willing to rest
when God rested

we seem to have lost the art of resting
of even seeking rest

how wide is the stride of God
how fast is the pace of God

how wonderful it must have been
to simply hear the laughter of God
and join in

did they rub shoulders as they walked

did they help one another up steep hills
or to cross a creek

did they ever lack for words

was there immediate understanding of each other
or the need for questions

I have gone on prayer walks
with some who are much much taller, wider, higher, stronger than I am
which, for me, necessitated a half run half walk pace

is this how Enoch kept up with God

I so desire to absolutely learn the rhythm of God
and move/live/rest easily in it
for the remainder of my walking days

hand moment

God asks

what is that in your hand

surely he knows

so why does he ask

could it be to simply draw our attention

to the very thing within our reach

granting an opportunity to lay it at his feet

our ability

our treasured possession

all at his disposal

silent moments

wow

I had absolutely no idea so many people

take the time

to read my stumbling words .....

I am sorry I have been silent for a bit

thanks for your calls and mail .......

your care and interest

have helped to reweave the tattered fabric

I am

or rather will be

whole

just traveling a road

of unravelling

one thing I have learned

when you ask God to expose everything

that needs to be exposed

you should also ask Him

for preparation

to deal with all that will be seen

awake moment

our world overflows
our narrow measurements
and begins revealing the dimensions
of our God

we may ignore but we can nowhere evade
the presence of God

the world is crowded with Him

the real labor is to remember to attend

in fact
to come awake

still more
to remain awake

C.S. Lewis