testing moments

today I will learn
if I am I what I say

the opportunity to be translucent

will I be able to allow the love of Jesus
to enter into my still open wound
and fill me
so that I can pour His love out
into another's
still open wound

I am wondering
if healing is not so paramount after all
but more the willingness
to allow Jesus to use my wound
however
wherever
for whomever
He chooses

even
for the one who wounded

and didn't Jesus Himself do just that?

maybe we spend way too much time
seeking healing

perhaps we are to simply
seek Jesus in the midst
of our pain
lay our head on His breast
and rest in submission

although not absolutely confident
I have hope
I will pass the test.