day thirty moment

Amos 8:10
"............ and I will make it like a time of mourning
for an only son
and the end of it will be like a bitter day"

thick darkness
air reeking of hopelessness
sweeping depression
silent despair

Jesus writhing in agony
his contorted face grotesque in the midday blackness

Matt: 27:46
"about the ninth hour Jesus cried out with a loud voice

ELI ELI LIMA SABACHTHANI

is his hope completely obscured by the darkness
of the sin he now carries

there is no answer to his cry
is he pierced anew by such rejection

from Gesthemane until now
God the Father has refused to intervene

and then suddenly
for no apparent reason
the sky begins to lighten
and God the Father weeps great sobs
shaking the heavens with his grief

mercy triumphs over judgment
love restrains the Almighty
the price is paid
by the Son who dies
and the Father who could save him but does not

Father God
I have rarely thought of your pain in watching your son die
but you were there
you did not leave
you stayed
you watched
you wept
and you did nothing
I am so unworthy o such love
and can only ponder your mercy