day eleven moment

"you will understand that spitting scene
the night when God lets you
see your own heart."
Alexander Whyte

every event leading to the cross
revealed a letting go of something that was rightfully His

"he humbled himself by becoming obedient to the point of death,
even death on a cross" Philippians 2:8

Caiaphas confident
Jesus weary
Caiaphas calling for testimony
Jesus silent
Caiaphas demands an answer
Jesus' response: I AM

chaos ensues
spit lands on the face of God

those who would strike Him
cover His eyes to strike in that darkness

taunts
jeers
spit
slaps

and the silence of Jesus
screams throughout eternity

dawn

Judas tries to return the silver that burns his hands
no one will relieve him of the thirty pieces

although still breathing
now dead
he hangs himself
from a tree

while another tree
awaits this man Jesus

I can only be silent in my sorrow
as I ponder what it must be like
ridiculed
spit upon
face swelling with each slap
bleeding
falling

yet not uttering one word

my heart is filled with the salt of unshed tears
as tears are too trivial for the torment He endured